Friday, July 24, 2009

Not Finished...but I want to Finish Well.

My heart is currently under construction. The past 48 hours have been quite hectic, forcing me to think and deal with life on an eternal level.

I don't know what will come of this, what I will be/feel like next week. I hope I getter a bigger dose of whatever I've got right now.

I woke up this morning, literally, with the lyrics from this song in my head:

You have redeemed my soul
From the pit of emptiness
You have redeemt my soul from death

I was a hungry child a dried up river
I was a burned out forest
And no one could do anything for me
But You put food in my boddy
Fill water in my dryed bed
And to my blackened branches
You brought the springtime
Green of new life
And nothing is impossibleFor You



We all have an instinctive "hole" in our hearts the moment we are born. Find me SOMEONE, ANYONE who doesn't ask at least once, "is there a God" "is there something to worship". If the question is not asked, it's felt. To what do I owe my allegience? The earth? Animals? People? Choices are made. Fame, fortune, presidents, leaders, musicians...are they worthy of worship? What do I choose above all else? What drives me to do what I do?

Switchfoot sings "This is Your Life. Are you Who You Want to Be?" My answer is NO. I recently went to a class, yep at church, that asked if we wanted to finish well. Yes, above ALL else, I want to finish well.

“Do not be afraid of those who kill the body but cannot kill the soul. Rather, be afraid of the One who can destroy both soul and body in hell. Are not two sparrows sold for a penny? Yet not one of them will fall to the ground apart from the will of your Father. And even the very hairs of your head are all numbered. So don’t be afraid; you are worth more than many sparrows.” Matthew 10:28-31 (NIV).